Sunday, February 27, 2011

Tonight, I will pray about you.

Sometimes, you really have to tell Daddy God what you really want. Specifically. That's what my mom told me. So every night, I pray that good stuff will happen. Good health, high grades, and some stuff that goes like 'I hope to see my crush tomorrow' and yeah. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. But now that I'm officially single and not in love with anyone, I want to pray to Daddy God what I really want. So that maybe if He'll send him, it'll be perfect. I won't ask for anyone else.
 A friend of mine told me that she knew someone that prayed the same thing. She prays to Daddy God what she wants from a guy. Physically, emotionally, whatever. Then she met someone, almost perfect, and he was religious too like her. But then, one day, he just changed. And it really broke her heart. But she kept on praying. Then Daddy God gave her the best one. Perfect, even better from the first guy. More on everything. It just means, sometimes you have to wait, if something goes wrong, something better will come.
 So tonight before I sleep, and all the nights that will come, I will include in my prayer. I will include you whoever you are, wherever you are right now, my true love.

 "Daddy God, you know who want. And he's out of my league. I'm talking about my forever crush, Taylor Lautner. But my guy shouldn't have a body like him, Lautner is too big. I want my guy to be just sexy. Just right, but I prefer with abs (Mom told me specific), and that I could hug him, and he could hug me tight too. He should have a great smile, and cute eyes. Preferably taller than me, he should be at least 5'9? or I don't know. Just TALL. He should have gorgeous biceps, coz they really look freakin hot. Oh, and his hair! Just Lautner's. Coz hairs are really amazing. I don't know why I like those shark hair thingy. I think it's really hot.
 He plays acoustic guitar, and sings well, so that he could sing and play to me my favorite song. He doesn't really have to be in a band coz I hate going to contests really late at night. He shouldn't be a Party person. He may go out occasionally, and occasionally means not every weekend. And by the way, I shouldn't meet him at a party (or club). Coz he'll think I go out much. He should a have taste in music, and I hope he cooks good. Coz I don't know how to cook. :)) He could be in a sport so that I could cheer him if he has a game. Maybe, soccer, basketball, volleyball, tennis(?), swimming or... just not chess or billiard or bowling. I find it boring (no offense). He should ask for a good luck kiss every before his game. :* :"> He shouldn't be so smart that I feel so dumb and be shy to speak out. He could have a car,  yeah. Car is GREAT -- gorgeous -- perfect. HA! He'll never get tired of holding my hand, and won't mind people who stare everytime he hugs me. He will never get tired of kissing me too. :"> He should be sweet. Gives me flowers, knows when to be cheesy and serious. He should make me feel appreciated all the time. He gives as much as possible time that he could. He texts me first, and tells me to have a great day and that he loves me. Posts on my facebook wall from time to time just to let other people know that I have an awesome boyfriend. :) He should be supportive about my dancing atnd goes at every contest or recital I have and he'll never fail to show up with flowers. ♥ He's the prefect example of a GOOD BAD BOY. ;)
 He shouldn't be so dumb, but not that smart either. Just knowledgeable and he talks about worthy stuff. Some trivia or something, or a little smart so that my parents won't think he's dumb. He should come from a known school, good school, with good reputation (elementary, high school and college). He SHOULDN'T me in the military, or something near it. He could be a doctor, nurse, marketing student like me, or anything. Just not MILITARY or something scary, someone too strict and possessive. He should come from a good family too, maybe known, or not.:) Just with good reputation is great. He could be rich, and his parents will like me the first moment they see me. HIHIHIHI
 He shouldn't be vain, but looks good on pictures. He should me moreno and has beautiful chinese eyes. :) He could dance, but if he couldn't I could teach him. And he'll love me even more. He should close with my friends, both high school and college. My bestfriends  should like him. and everybody else. I hope he has same religion as me.He'll be religious.:) And we include Daddy God in our relationship. :) My parents should like him too. VERY MUCH.
 He calls before he sleeps, spends ENOUGH time on facebook.  Could play dota or crossfire or computer games with his friends but won't choose it over me. Skype all night will me. Video call, whatever.  He shouldn't have taken drugs, and NEVER. He shouldn't SMOKE, never had, never will. Drinks occasionally, and would tell me not to drink much whenever I drink and he's not with me. Makes me feel secured and safe whenever he's around. Brings me home -- ALWAYS.
 He should accept me for who I am and wouldn't care about how I dress, instead, he always tells me I'm beautiful wearing whatever. He should me kind of fashion updated too. But not really over, like kind of almost too gay. If we argue, he won't post a status about it, instead he'll post something that 'he would do everything to keep me, and that an argument won't lead to break up. Surprises me all the time. :)
He'll tell me he loves me and will marry me someday - AND MEAN IT.

 Thank You, Daddy God. Even if I already have this guy, I will still love You more than anything else. :)


Tuesday, February 22, 2011

How to Start, How to Change?

I know that there's this saying "Love when you're ready, not when you're lonely." but when are you gonna start? How are you gonna start? How are you gonna change? I just listened to Taylor Swift's Last Kiss, and that she said it was the hardest song on her album Speak Now, coz it's like writing your last letter to the last person who broke your heart.
 How are you gonna start? Yeah. Like... How??? They say keep yourself busy so you can't think about him (or her), throw all the stuff that reminds you of him. Well, take it from me, those don't really work much. What I do, was keep those memories. Throwing them away is like throwing what you both once had, the lessons you learned from that person, and how happy he once made you feel. Never regret something that made you happy. they say, right? So, I kept the pictures, the stuff toy, the pillow, the bracelets and necklaces. I hid them somewhere that I can't see everyday. And I hope that one day, when I get to see it, I would just smile and recall the memories and lessons. :)
 So you gotta start by PRAYING. Nothing beats the best medicine (laughter is just the second best). Go on, He listens 24/7. It really works. Coz at my first heartbreak, I didn't really give that much attention to Him, that's why I went the hard way. But now, I may still have the scars, but they're healing and I'm smiling real smiles.
 Surround yourself with people who love you. Just coz you lost one doesn't mean you don't have anybody else. You got your friends, your family and everyone around you. Some might not be real to you, but trust me, they do care too. You lost a person, not everyone. You must've left out some "He's my life. He's my everything.
 Who am I without him?"  No. No. No. If until now (in the moving on process) you keep on saying that, you are not happy. What I mean with happy, is you, yourself and just you. If you can't be a happy single, you can't be happy taken. Coz happiness comes from within, not from men. That totally struck you huh! I know... Coz It did to me too... And keep on reading it, it's a good motivational sentence. :)
 Do what you love. Do what you love is different from keeping yourself busy. Coz other people get their self exhausted, and a lot of paper works (or whatever) so they end up, *UNHAPPY SINGLES. You may give yourself a few weeks to cry your heart out. Sleep eat cry is the routine. But after that, make sure you're ready to do what you love -- AGAIN. Do the things you did before he was there. Do it, love it, coz love isn't just about MEN. ;)


I can relate to Katy Perry's One That Got Away

 This is Katy Perry's the one that got away. A very touching song. I can totally relate to this coz it's some kind of about a guy that left and if only you could turn back time, you would bring him back; do everything to make him stay coz you don't want him to be just a part a of you in the past.
 In every relationship we go into, we tend to wish that it would be forever, though we know it isn't sure. Sometimes we feel that it is. That everything is perfect. Whatever angle you look at, there's nothing wrong, and you hope that there'll never be. But with just one blink of an eye, that perfect moment is ruined. What's worse, is that it got ruined at the moment you wanted to fix it.
 You can hope for the best, pray for the best, want the best. But it's not easy. You can never deserve the best if you never had the worst. Though it hurts letting go love, those cheap cheesy childish love we know, we have to. Someday, there'll be a mature perfect love for each of us. There'll be heartaches, tears, fights, coz a perfect relationship isn't perfect without it but all those sleepless nights, tears on every pillow, will be worth it.
 I admit I kind of rushed things. Went into a relationship at 14, that lasted almost 3 years. I partly regret it because I wasn't able to really enjoy my high school life which really plays a huge part in everyone's life. But then, I realized, if I did not get into that relationship, who will I be today? That relationship molded me into a better person, well, maybe some part worse too, but bottomline: It made me mature.
 I sometimes go back to those old memories and smile, laugh at my mistakes, but I never wished to take it all back. Coz if not of those mistakes, I won't change.
 Don't rush love, don't be too picky, fight love if you are willing to fight, go back to love but be brave enough to let go if you have to. Look at those tears as lessons learned, and hope not to make the same mistakes. Be a better person for yourself, not for anybody. :)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

This Time I Kneel And Pray

Remeber the first guy who broke your heart
You said you'll never love again
"Boys are cheaters" it's stuck in your mind
But you're still hopin he'd change

*Then one day a boy made you feel like never before
He made you fly, and you thought it was fine
But then again a boy broke your heart
But then again, you said "No one will tear me apart"

**This time I kneel and pray
I get to smile real smiles everyday
I don't have to hide all the scars that they made
Coz He's makin it all fade away
I love Him more than you
And I'll let Him write something new

Every night I don't ask Him bout you anymore
If you'll came back knockin on my door
But everything gets better coz He's holding my hands
He's hugging me tight,
tells me it'll be alright.

But there'll be a time that you'll go back to one
Wishin again that you should've ran
But then it's too late to go back to where it was,
Destiny calls, God is writing you another one

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Why Guys Love Girls

1.The way they always smell good even if it’s just shampoo
2.The way they always find the right spot on our shoulder
3.How cute they look when they sleep
4.The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.The way they kiss you and make everything alright in the world
6.How cute they are when they eat
7.The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end its all worth while
8.The way they are always warm even if its minus 30 degrees
9.The way they look good no matter what they wear
10.The way she fishes for compliments even though you both know shes the most beautiful thing on this earth cute they are when they argue
12.How their hand always seems to find ours
13.The way they smile
14.The way you feel when you see her name on the caller id after you’ve had a big fight
15.The way she says “lets not fight anymore” even though you know an hour later…
16.The way they kiss you when youve done something nice for her
17.The way they kiss you when you say”i love you”
18.Actually.. just the way they kiss you
19.The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20.Then apologizing for crying over something that silly
21.The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22.Then the way they apologize when it really does hurt (even though we dont admit it!)
23.The way they say “I miss you”
24.The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesnt hurt her anymore…Yet regardless whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them… it matters not.Because once in your life whatever they were to the world they become the world to you.When you look them in the eyes traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without a trace of sound you know that your own life is inevitably consumed with the rhythmic beatings of her very own heart. We love them for a million reasons, no paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of a mind, but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt. 

99 Guy Facts

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.
5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what? Uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate nice boy!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.
28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earthfaster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. Its good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”
59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

Friday, February 18, 2011


So, what's up? You readin my blog? C'mon. HA! Just kiddin. I made this out of boredom and... I want to share stuff. I had 2 other blogs, the other one was a fashion blog, the other is somewhat an online diary that nobody knows about. THIS ACCOUNT, will be for the public. I don't care what you people will say. Talk about me behind my back of anything like that, 'coz you have to admit it (if you do backstab me) I'm worth talking about. (Just like now if you're reacting. >:P) 
 I would write about things I have been up to, things I will do, and stuff I did. Stuff I like too, like clothes, fashion and music. :) I'm not really good at introducing myself, and I have no plans of doing such.
 Anyway, if you're reading this, thanks for wasting your time. Tune in, I'll post some other "worth-reading" stuff. Trust me, I will. >:)